Stillness #poetry

Why do I feel like there is a void that I cannot fill,
Everytime,
Every single time I try to smile from my heart,
Why did it stop hurting like before?
Am I loosing my empathy?
I hardly feel any compassion for others.
The urge to be in a family portrait is no more,
I am just walking towards a blackhole,
Not even by force,
Why do every rage feels so disgused,
There is no will to fight,
Tired.
The whole body,
But more the mind.
It doesnt want to be disturbed,
The tangled web of complexities that it already has is enough,
No more water to draw from an empty well,
No more music to play in this antique gramophone,
The lights of the chandlier have been replaced,
But forgotten to clean the dirt and cowebs,
The walls no more lusted for a new colour,
It wanted to stay unrecognised,
Thats it ,
it cannot hold more secrets, pain and horror within,
Release me into a lake like a dead womans ashes,
Let me float,
Let me stay invisible,
Stillness!

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